I'm really really sorry i didn't call you when i was leaving. My battery went dead and i guess you were asleep? But i appreciate the concern where you tried every way to contact me. From your calls to your text messages, offline msn message and more. Really sorry.

So anyway, i'm back. I feel different when i reached Singapore and i don't know why. It's like i'm left behind wondering what happened all this while. So i actually enjoyed myself at perth despite the weather and feeling pissed at certain point of the trip.

I'm having a little difficulty with uploading the photos but it'll be up soonest. I want to see boyfriendddd.

i e z s z t a e n e

Woke up at almost noon with a major headache. And what annoyed me more was the sound of this vehicle in the carpark horning continuously for 5 whole minutes followed by another car alarm. Bad start for a wonderful day.

I'm flying tomorrow and brother has to sleep alone for 6 nights. I laughed it all out since i know he's a major scaredy cat sometimes. Hahha. So, i'm excited, my luggage is almost complete but the hair wig taking up so much space.

Anyway, i had a great weekend, with lots of photos to share but not today, maybe tomorrow. My post now is like jumbled up. Got so much in mind but i just don't know what to type out.

I'm all set and i know you are too

I'm just trying to occupy myself. I haven't slept for more than 24 hours and only two knows that. And god knows how excited i am for certain things. In mind, it's my 15th month. Hee.

Okay continue
I feel irritated if i just don't type this out.

I dislike it when people try to show off when they're not half the standard.
I dislike it when just because i'm smaller people criticise.
I dislike it when people say things they hate but they do it themselves.
I dislike it when people just can't compromise for once.
I dislike it when people wants everything their way.
I dislike it when people use vulgarities in texts when they want to talk out of boredom.
I dislike it when people speak bad of their own parents when they did nothing.
I dislike it most when people think only of themselves.
And i hate it when people act like they're in such great standards.
Applying to anyone? I guess so.

But when there's hate, there's love right.
I love being alone when it comes to certain situations.
I love spending time just with one person at times so there's more attention between both parties.
I love spending time with boyfriend and i want moree.
I love the way my life is currently moving.
I love nature the way it is.
I love the natural reactions when people realise mistakes.

And what i want?
I want to one day be true to my parents about boyfriend, friends and my way of life because currently, they can't understand the way i feel.
I just want a moderate life.

The greatest gift, your simple kiss <3

Gr, the eye colour reacts badly to the flash.

I feel confused. You say you don't like me but there you are trying to know me more like some type of stalker. What's worse trying to be like me. Seriously weird.

My week's gonna be tight before i leave. I have got to finish my math by tomorrow while mum and dad goes for the house key appointment. Then on friday, i have to start packing my luggage for the trip and return the library books if possible.

Saturday, i have to get my madrasah's report book in the morning. Argh. Then it's camp in the afternoon with dad's family. Gah, i'm not really close to his side except for cousins shikin and ain but they won't be there. Cling to who? I don't know. Probably getting someone to meet me there?

Sunday's gonna be the birthday party for 'rakyat december' on mum's side. Excited. I've ordered the huge cake and wow it wasn't easy looking for a shop that caters good cakes. Still wondering what's vege cake. Then in the evening after the party, will be heading to courts or some place for the electrical needs for the new house.

I don't even have time to pack on weekends. Monday will be getting the batteries and some 100ml bottles for the trip? Tuesday, nap day and get ready for departure at the airport. Excited excited.

Yet to meet boyfriend because his nenek doesn't allow him to go out thinking i'm some other girl he's going out with. -___-

I'm through hiding yet, i still have to

Maisuroah Bte Marzouq
Time check: 0005

Happy 13th to you. The first time i ever knew your birthday after being together for like 7 years. They weren't close years though. But hey, we've been through a lot. The great times we had may just come to an end but i'm still happy for you no matter what decisions you make. If there's anything,i'm just a few blocks away.

At least it was midnight when i typed the above but i forgot to publish it. Going to send my brother for his test today at the cc and i think we'll be going out after that. I don't know when i'll be starting my math online.

It was worth the risk

I just don't get it. But whatever it is, i'm done thinking.

Had a great day today, although somehow, very short day. Went out to West Mall with Maisuroah, but it didn't last for too long. You okay already right, eat ice-cream. Hahah. Was 'trapped' outside my own house since maid was washing the taxi, dad was sleeping and i didn't bring the keys. So was making a lot of noise ringing the bell, calling the house phone, calling his phone and whatever you can think of.

But after an hour at home, i had to walk down to IMM to bank in some money and buy some stuffs. Heavy load in my backpack. Treated myself to bubble tea and walked home again. Thought of meeting boyfriend but i was too lazy to go out again so decided next week i guess.

Continue updating, i'm bored. Hehe.
Had this seriously weird dream two nights ago. Singapore was attacked with water and fighting back with bubble gum. Merepek right. But the ending was the coolest. Hee.

Can you feel the love in my breath

Ah, crap. I don't think i can make it out this week. Sorry boyfriend. I'll make it up to you. Even for last tuesday. I promise.

Anyway, i still got loads to do. Wrap my school books, pack other stuff for shifting, finish up my holiday assignments. And next week, there's briefing, out with Maisuroah and boyfriend. He's demanding to meet before i leave. Hahah.

I've finally convinced mum to follow me to Vivo this Sunday to get my flats. Can't get over the fact that my current flats are already 'demented'.

It's the lie i can't try